Category Archives: From The Heart

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Only 4 weeks until Easter, when I’ll be writing my final project report and revising for my last exams.

Only 9 weeks until my final project is due, the most important document I will have ever written.

Only 14 weeks until the end of university, after which I’ll have finished the road of education and start my road to finding the meaning of life.

Only 19 weeks until America, another adventure of a lifetime :)

Only one chance to make the right choices in life. Be who you have always wanted to be. Inspire your dreams and make a difference.

  • Happiness. 7 out of 10
  • Tiredness. 1 out of 5
  • Workload. 7 out of 10 (come on motivation, i know there’s some of you left)
  • Last Meal. Lots of chicken
  • Song of the day. Earth, Wind and Fire – September
  • Thought for the day. It’s no big deal. Just the future of humanity.
  • What I’m Doing Now. Breathing.

Dear Life,

Thank you. Thank you for the amazing times of the last few months. For giving me the privilege of working in Switzerland. Allowing me to go to Amsterdam and have the time of my life. Giving me the best friends I can hope for and more.

I know I’ve sometimes been frustrated with you, and it’s easy sometimes to get trapped in stress and not see how it will all work out in the end. I now have faith that when the time comes, you will provide me with a life I can’t imagine. I know I will have to work, I know I will have to try hard and not always do what I might want to, but in the end it will all pay off.

The last few months have been a dream and I know I will wake up soon and have to fall back down to reality, but right now, every day I can wake up with a smile and go to sleep knowing my dreams will not be as good as the last 16 hours… I can’t help but smile when I think how lucky I am to be here and to know a small part of it is because of the endless days I spent working every evening and taking my studies seriously.

If I ever need the motivation again to do the right thing, remind me of this moment: when I look out over the expansive skyline beyond the borders of this balcony, where the alps fall off into the clouds and the Swiss sun creeps slowly over the clear blue sky. This. is. the. moment.

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        • Happiness. 10 out of 10
        • Tiredness. 0 out of 5
        • Free Time. 2 out of 5
        • Last Meal. Pancetta & gorgonzola sandwiches
        • Song of the day. Jessie J – Price Tag
        • Thought for the day. Take pride in being whoever you want to be
        • What I’m Doing Now. Living the dream

Crack the Whip

This post was written on Wednesday 5th January

My first day back at work after Christmas was very welcoming. As much as I appreciated the Christmas break more this year because I didn’t have the Summer break I’m used to, going back to work was bizarrely cursive. It was great to see my work mates again and get stuck back into doing work I enjoy. I’ll admit that I did check up on the office a few times during the Christmas break (only about once a day) to see if anything was new. I was left quite disappointed when I realised that there was, in fact, nothing new, because everyone was on holiday. In just 6 months at work I can see how as you get older you really do end up living effectively two lives…

I’ve come up with a few new years resolutions:

  1. The first is to go inter-railing. I see this summer as my last summer as a free man. By next summer I will have graduated (fingers crossed) and be looking for a job. And then once you’re in a job, that’s it mate. Say goodbye to taking months off to “find yourself” and “see the world”. That’s what university is for. If you leave university without knowing who you are, well it’s too late! Ok, so I may be being a bit melodramatic, but there’s an ounce of truth in there. The matter of the fact is that this summer is the last time I’ll get to take a month or more off to travel for some time. And while I’ve got the money, no wife, no kids or a mortgage, it’s got to happen!
  2. Second is to exercise more. Do more climbing, running, weights and stuff. This is pretty much the most obvious new years resolution you can have, but hey, I have wool and go baaaaaa.
  3. And finally be true to myself. I know it sounds stupid, but I don’t want to be someone I’m not. I’ve spend a long time in the past not being happy with who I am, and in the last year or two I’ve realised that that’s rubbish. I like who I am, and I don’t ever want to be someone I’m not. Don’t be pressured into doing something that’s against who you are, and don’t give up striving who you want to be. That’s what 2011 is all about for me.
  • Happiness. 9 out of 10
  • Tiredness. 1 out of 5
  • Free Time. 4.5 out of 5
  • Last Meal. Rice. It’s all I could find :S
  • Song of the day. Paolo Nutini – Loving You
  • Thought for the day. “Got alot of love to give – but trust is a must n i’m tight like the grinch with it; don’t take it personal, i expect to be let down so prepare for the hurt n all. If ya real, you can see thru tha skills – and recognise that the child in me still feels. are you worth it? its not about being perfect, just catch when i fall and i’ll always return it.” -  Thanks Baz :)
  • What I’m Doing Now. Clearing my head after a long first day at work.

Putters & Leavers

This post was written on Tuesday 4th January

I went to write a list of 100 lessons I’ve learnt in 2010, but then I realised something. There is really only one lesson I learnt in 2010 that actually matters…

The lesson I learnt is to not take life too seriously. I had some bad experiences in 2010, but being able to laugh about them stops them affecting you as much. The quicker you can realise that what is done is done, the sooner you can get on with enjoying life.

I watched a fantastic comedian on Live At The Apollo the other day, Jon Richardson. And what he said was that there are 2 types of people in the world: Putters, and Leavers.

Putters are perfectionists. They know where they put their keys and they are tidy people. Leavers, however, are too busy enjoying life to care about where they leave things.

5m50s is Putters & Leavers – (video link updated)

No question I used to be a putter. Before I went to university and even within my first year I kept my room tidy, planned occasions, and generally kept track of my life. But recently I’ve become more of a leaver. I’m still a putter at heart, but I don’t have the time to be the perfectionist I once was with my life.

I realised that spending time with people, meeting people and spending time with friends was far more valuable in the long term than fussing about if I’d defragmented my hard drive recently. Perfection is short-lived in life, you can clean your room, sure, but is spending 2 hours cleaning your room to the nth degree better than taking 20 minutes to put stuff away as you get ready to go out? Especially when you know that in a week it’ll need tidying again. Life is short. Spend it with people and do new things, you’ll thank yourself in the long run.

I think it all depends on how much time you can really dedicate yourself to something before it’s better spent on something else. And maybe by not taking life too seriously you’ll be able to dedicate your time to more things and then you’ll be enjoying life more.

Maybe everyone is a putter and a leaver to a certain extent, it just depends how you handle mistakes that defines you. And if you take life too seriously, you won’t handle the mistakes as well. Am I on the right lines?

  • Happiness. 8 out of 10
  • Tiredness. 1 out of 5
  • Free Time. 3 out of 5
  • Last Meal. Toast
  • Song of the day. Paolo Nutini – Last Request
  • Thought for the day. Do the things you will regret, because life isn’t made by maybe, could have’s or might be’s. We only regret the chances we didn’t take to listen to the person we might have been.
  • What I’m Doing Now. Cleaning my room, ironically!

Choose Your Attitude

Most of us believe our attitudes are caused directly by outside influences like unpleasant experiences or negative people. But while external pressures may trigger our feelings, we are the ones wearing those feelings like a suit of clothes. We can either be subservient to external events, few of which we have any control over, or we can take charge of our own response.

“Choosing your attitude” is not always putting on a happy face or feeling pressure to adopt the outlook that’s “officially” acceptable. Sometimes angry or sad are what’s called for. That’s why choosing your attitude is about being aware of what your attitude is, and that it does affect you and others. Once you are aware of the impact, you may view your attitude differently, even if the situation or person that upset you hasn’t changed. Then you can ask yourself, “Does my attitude help me or others? Is it helping me be the way I want to be?”

“Choose your attitude” asks only that you make your own choice and not try to pass it off on something or someone else. Once you accept that you are the only one who is choosing your attitude at this moment, you can decide whether to keep it or shape it into an attitude that’s more satisfying. You control your attitude, not the other way around.

“You gotta choose where you’re gonna be as soon as you get out of bed. I consciously make that choice every day.”

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That was an extract from a website called FISH!

My mum once came home from a work dinner really inspired. The after-dinner speaker had expressed how she had used the philosophy “choose your attitude” to survive an ordeal sailing across the Pacific. Ever since then I have used that phrase many times to change my attitude in situations for the better.

If you listen to sad music, you will feel sad. If you want to beat yourself up about something, you will loose confidence in yourself. If you worry about what to say, then you will never be appreciated for who you are.

Choose your attitude is about waking up every morning and feeling good about yourself. Not worrying about the mistakes you inevitably made in the past. Not concerning yourself with people who don’t appreciate your company. If you are true to yourself then you will get the most out of life. If you don’t like something, change it. If your attitude isn’t helping, change it.

Inject a bit of fun into everyone’s day:

Swiss Musings

Note: This post is filled with random pictures, un-associated with the text.

Finally back in Guildford for the weekend after being in Switzerland since Monday. I’ve said this before and I will surely say it again: Sony is an amazing place to work. Since I started working there in July I can safely say that every day I go into work with a smile, looking forward to what it has in store.

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^ Blood Brothers: James came to Guildford a couple weeks ago. It was really great to see him! This will have to happen again!

Working in a large company such as Sony means there is always something to do, and the work I’ve been doing has not only been varied, but also relevant to my degree. In week 3 of placement I was given the opportunity to work on this project that would entail a trip to Switzerland… now that’s not a standard request! While the trip has been postponed several times, it’s finally happening. For me, it’s not so much the fact that I get to go to Switzerland, or the fact that I was asked to go; it’s the realisation that in the last few weeks I have become a part of the project team, not just a tag-along. And it’s that integration and appreciation that I’m most grateful for.

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^ A couple of pictures from the “goodbye” meal I had last weekend before I left for Switzerland.

I’ve realised recently that, as a person, I strive to be part of a team, and for my input to be valued and appreciated. If I can be my own psychiatrist for a minute, I think this all stems from secondary school where I often felt alone. I know, cue the violin, but it’s given me a new perspective on a few things. For example, I never fully felt part of Stage Crew, and because video was always considered an afterthought, I didn’t see my opinions being taken seriously. That’s probably why I don’t do it anymore.

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^ Halloween… ‘nuf said

I don’t know whether it’s a sign of weakness that I only feel motivated when I know someone will appreciate my work, but I do know that I have immense pride in my work (such as videos, websites, reports, etc.) and while I appreciate constructive criticism, I can often take it more personally than intended.

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^ Back in England. Did someone say party? (yes actually. Julie :P)

With MADTV recently, I’ve seen a divide between the committee and the team… And I know that last year’s team certainly felt that sometimes their effort wasn’t appreciated when reports were released late or not given as much promotion and care over as reports that committee were working on, even when it was. And I can see now how we could have communicated better, and I don’t want this years MADTV to go the same way. MADTV has had a brilliant start to the year, and it’s only going to get better and better. I just hope that the success of MADTV doesn’t jeopardise the team’s chance to learn through experimentation and have as much fun as we used to!

  • Happiness. 6 out of 10 (I have my reasons…)
  • Tiredness. 0 out of 5 (Woohoo! Enlightenment!)
  • Free Time. 0 out of 5 (And I don’t care :P)
  • Last Meal. Erm… Cereal :S
  • Song of the day. Duck Sauce – Barbra Streisand
  • Thought for the day. The Earth’s equator is so big that if you laid it out flat, it would circle the Earth approximately one time.
  • What I’m Doing Now. Waiting until Monday, when I can go back to Switzerland :D